A Work In Progress and will never stop
Hey, it’s Jake, and this will probably be my last post. Thanks for sticking with me throughout this journey of sharing my story. It has been difficult but rewarding, and I hope it helps somebody out there reading this.
My last post was about my overdose and how I ended up in the hospital because I nearly died from heroin. My mom knew my secret, and I had to face the fact that I had a severe problem and couldn’t continue on the way I was going.
I wasn’t happy with my life, but I didn’t want to die. I decided right there in the hospital that I was going to get help for my addiction and start turning my life around.
My mom was an angel and did some research to find a rehabilitation facility that would take my military health insurance. I left the hospital and went directly into rehab. I didn’t trust myself to go home in case I started using again right away. I was already having terribly strong cravings for heroin, and it took all my conviction not to second-guess myself and go straight to rehab.
Detoxing was horrible, but the facility gave me medicine to help as much as possible with the cravings and physical discomfort. I saw a therapist who diagnosed me with PTSD and depression and started treating me for it. I talked in group therapy about my war experiences, and there were even some other former soldiers there who could commiserate.
I just recently finished my 30-day stay and am clean and sober for the first time in about a year. Leaving rehab was kind of like leaving the military. I was scared to lose my new routine and afraid of the temptations of the outside world.
I have started applying to colleges and plan to start attending classes next semester. I attend Narcotics Anonymous meetings regularly and have weekly sessions with a therapist to help maintain my sobriety. As of now, I have no desire to try heroin again, but I know addiction could follow me for the rest of my life. I am prepared now with the tools I need to fight the addiction, and I had already come a long way from where I was when I entered rehab.
If you or anyone you know is suffering from addiction, PTSD, depression, or any sort of mental health issue, please do not wait to get help. Address the problem and start working on getting better as soon as possible. You deserve to feel better, and treatment can equip you with the tools to change your life, just as it did for me.
Thanks for reading.